I updated!

I finally updated my blog to the new Beta version. Has anybody else noticed that everything is going beta these days. New Beta this and new Beta that...Oh well, often change is a good thing. I probably will hardly miss the old version, I hope.

You know, God is my source, and with His help I am going to completely conquer this change allergy that I seem to have. Believe it or not, my aversion to change is barely a whisper when it comes to the big move next year. Honestly, the day I knew it was really official, I cried for about an hour or two. Since then it's been smooth sailing. I am in "get her done" mode right now. Ever once and a while the enemy will come at me with something like, "Do you really think you can just pick up and go to college like this at your age?" or "It just keeps getting more and more expensive, how are you going to be able to afford this? And what if you do all of this, and nothing comes of it?", yet I am ignoring all of his comments. My steps are ordered, and my God is a good shepherd.

The other project:

I have not written anything about this, but I am working on something that for the moment is even bigger than the move, but I can't really post about this until I talk to my pastor about it. Which I won't do until I am finished with the first step. Your interest is peaked, huh? Well hopefully I can say more fairly soon. To be honest though, this other project is 1000 times scarier than the big move. Good thing it was His idea.

Speaking of Daddy God, we are working on a new song right now. I love the words that I have to it so far. I started singing this one while cleaning the church one Tuesday.


Your Joy is my strength
Your strength is my joy
When you smile on me
Nothing can destroy,
my dreams.

A light to my path,
A lamp to my feet
When You lead the way,
Nothing can deplete,
my joy.


Aren't those a few happy thoughts for your day! :) For your life even. :) Anyway, I think that I this will be all for now.

Goodbye and Godbless. Yes, I know.

Love ya bunches,

Roz

Poll Cheating 101

Okay, I usually post my observatory/political posts on Xanga, but I thought I would post this one here. I had to get my physical for school this morning, and while I was in the waiting room, CNN Headline News was on the tv. They did a story about how new voting machines could allow voters to vote more than once. Then they go on to tell the people exactly how to go about cheating in this way. Then after the "How to vote more than once" lesson, they explained how people could not get away with doing it becuase of poll watchers and the beeps that it would make. My thought is, how many people would even think to do that had you not explained the process so thuroughly. Sometimes I wonder about the wisdom of our American media. Rant over. :)

God bless and Goodnight!

Love ya and of course I know,

Roz

This time next year...

Hey everyone,

This time next year, I will not be sitting where I am now. (This is what I was referring to in the bubbling post). I will more than likely be in my dorm room. Yes, that is my big news. I am going back to school. I am finishing my degree. Well, actually my original degree would have been a BS in Biology, but now my degree will be a BS in Drama/Television/Film Performance and (yes, I am going for a double major) Mass Media Communication with a Emphasis in Multi media production. Basically, I am going to get a degree in having fun. Lol I am not sure whether I will be doing dual degrees or just dual majors. I will have to find out which one is better.

So anyway, right now my goal is to prepare for leaving for Tulsa. I have a lot to do in the next ten months, and I am working on getting it all done. The first things I need to do is finish registering. I hit a snag today, in that I realized I don't remember my ACT scores. I also don't remember when I took the ACT test. That was over ten years ago, you understand. I mean that is quite a few sleeps ago. So anyway, I guess I will have to wait until Monday to do that.

That is okay though. God has really been showing me that He is indeed being my shepherd and leading me into this venture. He has even gotten me a job. Yeah, I know. But I am going to have to take a regular job for a little while because I need some money to prepare to leave home. I need a laptop and two printers (One for here, and one for there). I don't officially have the job yet, but the chances of me not getting it are pretty slim as I understand it. So that is cool I guess. The only thing is, I am going out of town next weekend. And if things work out, I am likely going to Tulsa on the 2-4 of November. Hopefully, the people at the new job will understand that. I mean it is college. That is pretty important. The trip this weekend is business too. It is a Xooma trip. I am excited about that too. If there is one thing I love, it is to travel. Lol

In other news, I did indeed to a really good video blog, but unfortunately I could not get the thing to upload correctly. I don't know what happened, but that really annoyed me. I will try to do better next week. lol Well, I am going to stop this post, so that I can try to do a little work before I turn in for the night.

Much Love to You,

Roz

Clean Christian Comedy

This is funny :) Just sharing.

Bubbling and Trembling, at the same time...

Okay, so I still have things to say about the list I made in my last post, but I want to talk about right now, right now. Right now I am excited, kid at Christmas kind of excited becuase I know that a new adventure is coming. This is not one of those know in my spirit kind of things. This is a already moving toward it, preparing to get it done kind of thing. I want to explain my title; I am not scared. I mean I know God does not start something that He is not going to finish. So I know that everything will be okay. I also know that I cannot do this without complete and total reliance on Him. I have to stay humble, stay focused, stay in love, and stay humble. Did I say that before? lol By humble I mean I have to know that I am not to under any circumstances to look to anybody, including and especially myself, to get this done. Not that I can just sit around and twiddle my thumbs while success magically unfolds around me. Of course not! It all comes down to acknowleding Him, not depending on my natural understanding, and allowing Him to direct my path. AND giving Him glory when He does. :) Anyway, I can't really go into great detail about this new thing until I have made it official. I have to wait until November. So more later on that subject. I will say this. My pastor told us that we are about to wake up one morning to a whole new world. :) How right he is!

In other news, I am enjoying my video camera/webcam/digital camera. It is all kinds of fun. I need to download a bunch (or burnch, if you prefer) of pics from it. Also, I need to do a video blog. I did one already, but I don't want to put that one online. I know all you people who actually read my blog, are wondering what I look like. Actually it is not that hard to find out. My pics are on my Myspace profile. :)

Tomorrow is Sunday. So I better start preparing for it. God bless. Yeah, I know...


Goodnight!

Things I want to blog about...

Okay, I am having a whole influx of subjects run through my mind that I want to "blog". So I am going to make a list. I need to actually sleep, so I can't possibly post anything that will give the subjects their just due right now. So I am going to list them here. Think of them as the Ramblings of Roz fall line up. lol

1. In Jesus' Name...
2. Altars, Songs, and other Moment Markers
3. Numbering vs. Trusting (This one is really a continuation of the last post.)
4. Saturation (This is either going to end up being a song or a poem (which may tie in with number 2. I can feel it coming...)

Yeah, I know...He knows too

Probably Random

I entitled this entry probably random because I am not sure what I am going to talk about right now. There have been times when I have been itching to write something here, and yet I have not made it to the computer with enough free time to do so. I am always working, or studying, or writing (although, lately not enough). Which is not a bad thing, but it is nice to just take a moment to spill every once in a while. :) I want to just throw some things out there that I have been meditating on since the last time I wrote something here.

I think I will start with belief. :) Hmmm...Think I will throw in some Word here.

But without faith it is impossible to please Him: for he that cometh to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him. (Heb 11:6)

For a while now, I have been completely disastisfied with telling God how awesome He is. I have been worshiping God and at a loss for a more adequate thing to call Him. He is sooo much more than awesome. Anyway, as the word felt highly overused and totally inadequate to me, I started to seek God for other ways to express my wonder of His greatness. I tried majestic, magnificant, etc. etc. But for some reason no adjective worked for me. Most of the time, I just end up switching over to tongues. One evening at church we were worshiping God and a word came forth about believing God. Now, keep in mind, any time I get intimate with God, one of the most consistent cries of my heart is that I may worship Him wholly in spirit and in truth. That my life should praise Him, not just my hands and my mouth. That I should glorify Him in every aspect of my existence.

When that Word went forth, I whispered, "I believe you, Lord." In that instant, He said back to me: "That is the best way you can worship me." This really blessed me, and I totally understand what God was saying to me. God wants above all to be trusted, to be believed.

When we trust Him completely in an area He always shows up in a big way. Ever notice that? When we think on His Word until it becomes alive in our hearts it never fails to yeild bountifully.

Father,

I believe You! I believe You love me. I believe You've healed me. I believe You are my strength. I believe you teach my hands to war and my fingers to fight. ( I am doing that right now.) I believe You supply all my needs!

I love you, Lord. In Jesus's name...

Roz

Technically, It is still Sunday

I am so glad that the Lord is merciful. Lord knows I need His mercy. :) Well, this can be counted as a weekend post. My weekend was okay. Nothing major occured, Sunday morning service was awesome. I played with a seven year old this evening, until I finally got her to go to sleep. Now I am just kind of hanging :) Anyway, I don't have much to say. A little too tired to be insightful right now. So this is the gist of my weekend post.

Yeah, I know, but you gotta love me.


Roz

A Quicky!

I am about to go walking with my mother this morning, so this will be a quicky. Well the big news is I heard from Charisma Kids on I Can; God will. Strang wants to co-publish the book with me through Creation House. This will still give me a major release, but I have to agree to buy a lot of books.
More Later

Road Trip!

I set my alarm clock to five AM this morning. I am going to Dallas today. What fun! Last night my pastor really blessed me, the man was like a wisdom fountain last night. He told us several things that we need to believe God for in this season: Uncommon favor, loved ones (especially children, but I am believing for some of my friends, too.), God's provision outside of our regular income, and the reentering of opportunities, to name a few.

Maybe this week...

Okay, the operative word is "trying", and I am trying to post everyday. It is just not going very well. :) Anyway, I had a good morning, in that I could not stay awake last night to watch movies, so I went to bed before midnight. At four o'clock this morning, God woke me up to spend some time with Him. I cannot tell you the last time I went to bed early enough for Him to do that. :) It was pretty cool. But I did not have any good music, and that was bothering me a little. Still it was nice to get some early morning time with the Lord. :)

I probably went back to sleep around five. Then I had to get up at seven to get ready to open the office this morning. (S. Cherry had to go to court.)

Anyway, I am about to start a study on the Fruit of the Spirit. God has been showing me some things about them, and I need to study them out. In other news, I am working on an epic story poem, that I will soon post. Probably on my myspace blog, and on the myspace bulletin. Maybe I will post it on Faithwriters, too. :)

This post must seem somewhat boring, as I am only randomly stating facts. Sorry about that. I need to listen to the news today and see what is up with all this nuclear bomb stuff. I have been hearing rumors, but I have not had a chance to check it out for myself. When I do, I believe I will blog about that. Anyway, maybe I’ll come back with something profound later today.

Love you all,

Roz

Yeah, I know :)

Believe it or not...

Believe it or not, I did plan to write on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. However, I was in a house full of people. (Three children, including a three year old). And while I did start a few entries, I was never quite able to finish one to my liking. I think I will make up for it today by trying to post something on all my blogs. lol

Today I am in a good mood. Actually I have been in a good mood for a while now. This weekend was a little stressful, just in that I wanted some alone time, and did not get much of it. Still, I did have some fun, and kids can be good to have around sometimes. You can actually learn from them. I hope I learned some patience. lol :)

I am loosing weight, and I am so excited about it. I now have a size 14 dress in my wardrobe that is no where near tight, and actually has a little room in the waist. Well, some might say 14 is nothing to get excited about, but when you were 16 heading toward 18, 14 is pretty cool. And I am not through loosing weight. :) I plan to reach my goal of regaining my 28 inch waist line. I want to get down to a size 10, I think. That will be a nice size to remain, although I may even go for a 7/8. I don't want to be any smaller than that for sure. Well, I have some more to say, but you will have to check Xanga and myspace to read it. :) I may write my honey today too. lol

Roz

A New Perspective on Change...

The Lord has introduced me to a new perspective on change. I have taken to walking with my mother in the morning. The first time we went around the track, we parked in a shaded area that was really close to the track. The next time we parked a little further from the track, and I made the comment (more an observation than a complaint really) you usually park closer. That particular morning (yesterday) I had a dificult time with itching. (Sometimes when I walk, I itch, but I want to get into that later.) So anyway, that morning when I got back into the car to wait for my mother, the super walker (proud daughter speaking), and there was such a great breeze outside that I did not need to turn on the air conditoiner. It was really nice. So anyway, today Mama parked where she usually does, and when I went to sit in the car (did not itch as much today, but like I said I want to talk about the itching thing separately) I noticed the place closer to the track had a little less shade and a little less breeze. There was still some shade so it was not unbearable by any means. But I notice the difference, and I commented on it. As soon as I did I heard the Lord say, "See what happens when you complain about your blessings." Immediately I remembered my comment about my mother usually parking closer to the track.

God was teaching me a valuable lesson. You see I am the kind of person who likes her cheese where it is, thank you very much. Change has often annoyed me, and I usually take big change like one might take liquid medicine (very reluctantly). But I made a decision today. I am going to a make a practice of looking for the blessing in the change.

I mean if I am going to move with God things are going to change. He believes in taking us from glory to glory, and with every new level of glory, there comes new changes, challenges, and responsibilities. In my determination to be all that God has called me to be, I am going to have to learn to move with Him. When I think about this, the Biblical reference that comes to my mind is Elijah. Elijah probably became pretty comfortable with the ravens bringing him his food everyday, and drinking fresh spring water. When the spring dried and the ravens stopped visiting him, he had an opportunity to complain to God. However, the Bible does not say anything about him complaining. It only says the Word of the Lord came to him. It only shows that God immediately had an instruction for his provision.

I cannot think of any account in the Word of God, or in my own life even, when God has not made provision for His people when He moves them, or even when they have to move. With the children of Isreal the fire and the cloud moved with them. When Joseph was thrown in jail, God moved the blessing on into the jailhouse with Him. Uh oh, I am going to get excited in a minute. I already am actually. lol Last night I was realeased into my call by a prophet of God. I will talk more about that later; this really is all about flowing with God, knowing that He is in control, and looking for the blessings in the changes in our lives. And that is about all I have to say for now.

Leave it to me to not post here in almost a year and then come back and post something this long, without a hello. Well, hello cyber space. I am working on posting on a blog everyday. (That is actually a goal of mine. And I am of the opinion that I can (in Christ) meet all my goals. I will talk about that later too. ) Yeah I know. I always think about readers that may stop by. Lord let this be a blessing to someone else even as it has been a blessing to me.

Much love,

Roz

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Here We Are

Again. :) It has been quite a while since I have put fingers to keyboard on this blog, but when inspiration hits...it hits. Well, where do I begin. I have been, and still am busier than normal, but I have been, and still am having a lot of fun. However, instead of listing the numerous projects I have going right now (although that is what I was just about to do), I want to talk to you my fellow cyber-spaces about some things happening under the surface. I want to talk about the subtle changes, so subtle in fact that though I have been hoping for them, I had not realized they were bubling just under the surface until I sat down to "blog a little." A renewal, revival, if you will is coming and will soon be here.

Anyone know how it is to loose your hunger? I had not lost my hunger in every area, but only in the most important area. For probably longer than I care to reflect on, I have not been truly hungry for going deeper with my Lord. Not to say that I have been particularly backslidden or irreverant, but I have not been compelled to do more than what's "normal" in our relationship. It's like I got to a certain level and said this will do, Lord. But "this will do" will never do with God. That is just not how it works with Him. He wants us to go from glory to glory.

So here I am ready to move again, to go deeper, to learn more, to embrace eagar obedience. And I was thinking that nothing was happening, until just a few moments ago. I guess sometimes you have to write to know what is going on inside of you. (Man I am dramatic. lol) Seriously though, my expectation levels are beginning to rise, and I could not be happier about it. This is not the blog I usually use when these types of self-revelations hit, but here it is nontheless. Oh the Joy to be called His Child!

I have been meditating on love for the past week or so, and I know God is about to show me something about it that I have not seen before. Maybe I will post that revelation here too, but maybe that one will be for the other Xanga blog.

Well that is all for now.

Thanks for stopping by.

Yeah, I know...

The Fire

I stayed up until 11:00 AM on Friday (from Thursday) making sure the fourth issue of Parables was published. Actually after that I only slept off and on, because there were a few upload problems. At any rate, I had already planned to sleep nice and long on Saturday. I went to bed around two or three Saturday morning, and my mother woke me up to help her with her hair and feed the sibs. After that, I put in Million Dollar Baby (rented the night before) and layed back down. I slept off and on and watched the movie. When the knocking started I was in deep sleep. At first I did not realize the knocking wasn't a part of my dream, but thanks be to God, it got louder and woke me up. So I am thinking, who in the world is banging on the door like that. I go to the door and say, "Who is it?" and someone says "Ma'am yall got to get out of the appartment, the appartment upstairs is on fire!"
So I go into speed mode, run to my brother's room throw him some pants (we were all sleeping). Then I run to my sister's room and throw her some pants. Then, since I am in my jammies, I look around for the the first decent thing to wear, and end up yanking a sundress over my head. At this point, my sister is still slowly putting on her pants. She did not understand the urgency of fire. So I hurry her along explaining that we need to get out of the house now. I did not see her shoes immeditately and had no idea how bad the fire was, so I just led her out in her socks. My sandalls were right beside my bed, so I did grab those.

When I did get back to the living room, smoke was starting to come through the vents. It smelled awful. So Bran had neither shirt nor shoes...no service for him. :) Anyway, we are all outside, and as soon as we get out there, the fire department arrives.

The smoke getting stronger, they have us back up and move away from the building. The fire was contained to the bedroom where it started. A lady and her daughter woke up with their bed aflame; I can not imagine the horror of that moment. When I first got outside, the little girl was crying, and she told me her hair was on fire. (It was not anymore. She was talking about when she awoke.) Her face was burned a little as well, so they took her to the hospital. The mother stayed there to talk to the police. Turns out another of her children, he looked like he was three or four years old, was playing with a cigarrette lighter.

I am now in a hotel room at the Courtyard Marriot. They turned off the electricity, and so we had to leave until the electrictian makes sure everything is okay. I am hoping that will be today. I want my computer back. I am on my mothers laptop right now. I took my computer out of the house for safe keeping.

At the house, the living room and kitchen smells awful, but the back rooms smell nice. For some reason the smoke never reached them. That is a good thing. :)

I feel bad for the family. I am praying for them. I bet they lost a lot, but even in this I can see God's hand, his mercy. If the baby had not started the fire in the same room where the mom and daughter were sleeping, it would have taken longer for them to figure discern it.

So I am thankful that things were not worse. :) And being in hotels is kind of fun in a way. :)

In other news, the Ted Dekker interview was cool. :) And despite the usual publishing drama the fourth issue was a hit. :) I still have some reminders, courtesy copies, and book reviews to get out, but I am going to wait until I am on my own computer to do all of that. I pray it happens today. :)

That's all for now.

Yeah, I know....

God is awesome!

Roz

PS. It is really hard to type on this laptop, so I appologizee for any mistakes.

My Trip to Houston

It has been a few weeks since I went to Houston, but I am just now getting around to writing about it. It was so much fun.

First of all, I was invited by leader of our women's ministry at church. She has her own ministry called Zoe Ministries. I will probably be doing a website for it soon, and after I do, I will post a link here.

Anyway, the workshop was called Successfou which means Mad or Extraordinary success. It was all about goal planning, and being successfull. It was really awesome.

I went to a Mac Counter at the Galeria Mall in Houston, and the lady there (Dianne) was really sweet. The make up was great too. I will definatly get some when I can. I also went to a Mall in Katty Mills, TX, called the Katy Mills mall. It was so coool! They have a book store there where I bought two hardback novels for ten dollars. WoooHOOOO! Also I bought a cute little wig (short and spiky) and I also bought some new earings.

That along with the fellowship and the ministry (This was a ministry workshop) and I think it was one of the best trips I have ever taken. (The trip to TN for the Push Press and Pursue Conference is also high on my list.)

Next post will be about the first novel, then I have got to tell about the wedding! Roz

Long Time... Yeah I know

Okay, so I have not blogged in a while. I told you I was sporadic. :) Can't ruin my reputation, now can I? lol

Since it has been a while, there has been a lot going on with me. I am happy to report that I am once again making progress on Patches. I listened to what I have written so far on Adobe, and I must admit, the story is coming along quite nicely. There were of course a few typos that made me cringe, but I will go back and fix those after I am done.

In other news, I am more than a little excited about the next issue of Parables. One of the best Christian fiction authors....ever, will be on the cover and in the mag, interviewed my none other than yep you guessed it: Me! (Wow, don't I seem excited, you'd think I was a fan or something. lol) Anyway, the stories that we have so far are awesome too. We are in need of some more contemporary stories, if there are any Christian fiction writers out there. www.parablesmag.com

Also I am excited about a new project I am starting with my journalism staff at church. We are going to write a story together (one installment each issue until the end of the year.) So far, everyone seems to be all for it. I think it will be loads of fun.

In other news I met this really awesome....yeah, right. I am just playing. lol

I want to talk about Houston now, but I think I will do it in a separate posting. There is a lot to say about it.

I also have some cool news about my first novel. So I think I will stop this and start a new post now.

...Yeah I know