Hmmm....

Okay, so I am back from Wal-Mart. I wanted to play racquetball today, but I realized that I could not play with the shoes that I have. I needed new tennis. So I went to the store to get a pair. I like them, but I am back in my room now. I am tired, and I don't feel all that great. I don't really want to go over to the gym right now. I guess getting the right shoes was a good step in the right direction. I really like them, they make me want to walk. It has been a long time since I had a good walk. Maybe I will do that later. Not right now though. I got The Brother's Bloom from the Redbox today, so I think I will watch that and relax for a bit. Then, once I feel better (gonna take some Ibuprofen), I am going to work on my play and my game. I am so excited about both projects. I am making the game for my Interactive Media class and I am doing the play for a radio drama. Although I want to use it as a stage play too. Anyway, I am going to stop writing for now. It feels good to write again. I will eventually get around to writing about some real stuff, but I am not rushing anything.

Saturday

Today is Saturday, and I have been up since 9 something. Well, actually awake is more accurate. I am still in bed. I am watching Deliver Us from Eva. It's a good movie. But it is ending now. And Shall We Dance is coming on now. I love that movie. I love most dance movies though. I think Step Up might be my favorite. But this is a close second. Then again, I like Center Stage quite a bit too. And of course Dirty Dancing (RIP Patrick) lol I should just stick with I love most dance movies. I am tentatively excited about the new Fame movie. I say tentatively because I am a huge fan of fame. When I was a little girl, I used to love the TV show. Absolutely loved it! I used to want to be CoCo. I thought she was the greatest. Then in high school, it was a production of Fame, that made me want to be an actress. It was really weird. I just got this almost overwhelming sense of longing to be a part of a performance like that. I just remember knowing with such joy and peace that this is what I want to do. So anyway, Fame has been a pretty significant story in my life. And I really hope the movie rocks. :)

I want to get some breakfast at some point. There is an audition today for a short comedy film, and I thought about going, but I don't think I will. What I would love to do today is go to the gym. I have been seriously thinking about putting an ad in the Oracle for a badminton partner. I really miss it. I want to start by playing on Saturdays and Sundays. Just for a couple of hours each day to start. But I realized the other day, that even if I can't play badminton, I can play racquetball. You can get a good workout with racquetball by yourself. So I think I am going to try to go and play some today. We have another show tonight, but I don't have to be there until 6:00 PM.

Anyway, I think I am wrong about this movie. I don't think it is Shall We Dance. Jennifer Lopez is in that movie. This is the one with Antonio Banderas. I like it too. I like it better than Shall We Dance, although I do like that movie.

Anyway, I want to get dressed so that I can go to Saga and have a waffle. More later.

For the Longest Time...

OKay,it has been forever since I have written a blog. I believe, if I were to look at the date, it has probably been well over a year. It feels like it could have been two years. I don't know. I just know there is so much that I have not said. I am not saying that I am going to say it all right now. I am not exactly sure what I am going to write about; I just decided that I wanted to write. What exactly is on my heart right now? Well, I will just start with what is happening around me. Maybe I will stay there. Maybe my fingers and my keyboard will take me to someplace altogether different.

I am sitting at the light board 35 minutes before the opening night performance of The Oedipus Cycle. There are actors on stage doing doing their mic checks. All of them seem to be in costume. That is good. :) There are also back stage crew members on stage, preparing for the top of the show. Watching the mic checks can be amusing as the actors come up with clever things to say for Owen, our sound guy.

A little girl who plays the child version of Ismene just went across the top of the stage. Now she is running up it. Looks like fun. It is very cool that we have an actual raked stage for this show. So that upstage is literally upstage and downstage is downstage. :) There is a lot of brilliance attached to this show. That is usually the case with our shows. I am not bragging; okay maybe I am, but I think our theatre program is impressive. The set design is cool. The lighting design is wonderful. *Yay Chris Crawford* The sound design is extraordinary. *Yay, Bittner!* The costumes are gorgeous. *Yay, Mrs. Holland and the costume staff. Yay Deanna for the armor*

Okay, now everyone is sitting in a line, and I think they are doing green room. I am not down there. I wonder if I should be. They are clapping now. I think he is telling them to thank the crews. I am betting back stage is fun for this show. There is a lot of noise in the lobby so I can't here what Chris is saying.

Okay, I was gone for a sec. I leaned forward a bit to hear better. It is about time for the show to start. So I guess I will just post this. Baby steps. :)

Extraordinary!

xtraordinary! It is becoming on of my favorite songs. "The Earth will sing Your praise, the glory of Your name, the greatness of Your ways, You are Extraordinary!" Father there is nothing ordinary about you. The way you do things in my life is hardly ever how I thought you would. I love to watch You work in my life and the lives of those around me. Many are the plans in a man's heart, but You direct their steps. Direct me always Lord, even when I don't understand what you are doing. Thank you for being extraordinary. :)

Dedicated

edicated is the word I woke up to last week, after I finally posted Caller. Thank you Father for being so dedicated to loving me. Thank you for taking the trouble, after man fell to prepare the way back to You. Thank You Jesus, for being dedicated to walking around on Earth in human flesh and being a living example of what is like to live a life completely and totally submitted to the will of the Father. Thank You for your sacrafice on the cross. Thank You for saving me, and thank You so much for remaining dedicated and never leaving me. Thank You for being my example of dedicated, and Father please help me to return it. Help me to be more dedicated to You. You are my everything. Thank You! :)

Caller

Thank you Lord for being my caller. I am not just talking about creating me with a purpose, and placing a calling on my life. That is awesome, and I thank you for that too. But You my God call me to You. Whenever I start to drift away, or make anything more prevelant than my relationship with you, You are quick to say, "Yoo hoo! Roz, keep me first!" "Hey, Roz, I come back to me....remember your first love..." You never let me stray, Lord. Thank you so much for being so faithful to remind me that You are the one thing that is needful, that more than anything if I want to survive this life You have ordained for me, I have to continue to look to You as my source of everything. I love you for it. I am so grateful that you are a faithful caller. Thank you for calling me, and being patient with me. Thank you with all my heart!

Beloved

eloved, Father, is the word that was on my heart for you when I woke up (the third time) this morning. I looked for another word because while I know you call your children, your beloved, I was not quite so sure I could honestly call you my beloved. Not because I don't love you. Well, at least I try to love you. You say over and over in Your word that if we Love you, we keep your commandments. It is my hearts desire to keep them all the time, but You know I don't. You know better than anybody how much I screw up. WOW, I just got it. It is okay that I call You my beloved without getting it all right. Because in my heart I am working toward that end. To love you with my whole life. To obey You the instant I hear You. And even though I don't have it all together, you still love me. You still call me daughter. I love You for that, Father. I love you for sending Jesus to shed His blood that covers me and offers me the chance to come to You. Thank You, even for this lesson that I have learned today. I am glad I did not change the word. My God, My King, My Beloved.

Amazing!

Okay, so I am doing another round of Praises A to Z. This time the rules are different, as long as we use a word for each letter of the alphabet, the structure of the "praise" can be anything we want it to be. :)

mazing Lord,

Just want to take a little time to talk to You about how amazing You are in my life. When I got out of my car the other day it struck me that there are so many things in my life, that are there because You made them happen. When I deserve nothing but to be ignored or shunned, you bless me. You bless me with health when I eat crazily and sleep way to little. You bless me with good grades, even when I don't do as well as I want to on some test. You amaze me with the way You continue to be a kind, generous, loving, savior, no matter how I behave. You make me want to do better. You make me want to draw closer to You, to learn how to be more like You. You make my jaw drop when I think about the amazing effects of You being the Lord over my life. Thank you, Father, for being so incredibly amazing. I love you!

Hello World

Hi Everyone,

Ever had one of those moments, after a long period of being too busy and too tired to care, when you absolutely must doll up. Tonight, I came to that place. Did not matter that I had no where to go or nothing to do, or that no one would see me. I had to be cute, tonight. I had to do my hair, and put on some makeup. (I am not sure when I got so comfortable not wearing any.) I even put on eye liner. The good thing about doing this is it is fun. The bad thing is that it can snowball really quickly. WHen you do this, you want something cute to wear to match your dolled up face. Then you do that, and you do want to go somewhere. lol Anyway, I am not going that far. I am just going to throw on a top, and go. And soon too. Time to meet up with Chris. Well, in a few minutes. So this will be a short blog. You see I knew, I could not let this moment pass without sharing with you how I just randomly, after over a month of bumming it, decided to fix up a little bit. :) Anyway, more later.

Yeah, I know.

Love ya all. :)
Roz

Time to blog again

Well since we are well into the year of 2008, and I myself have recently started a new "year" of my life, I think it is about time that I blogged. Today I am going into the studio to record a 60 second analog commercial. Fun stuff, I hope. I am hoping everything goes well. We allowed ourselves four hours to get it done, so hopefully we can get it done in that time. :) I am going in with my side kick, Sara the
SARA: I am laughing internally becuase you see, it is not I who is the sidekick...
No, it is not I. I am the leader. I am a mountian. I am the rain that falls on a ...(roz is laughing at my words...my statments. I am writing a thing of beauty here and Roz is having a freaking feild day, what the crap? I am almost never open and poetic and artsy and dramatic and amazing and wait a second. I am always amazing, even when I don't think i'm amazing, I'm amazing, because I'm amazing in the sense of not realizing how amazing I truly am. Wow...I am wonderful. I am God's gift to earth...wait a second. Who am I kidding? ok...that was a sad reality check. Moving on.) soft spring evening.
Roz: as I was saying...my sidekick, Sara "I am more amazing than the world" H. Sara does not like her last name mentioned over the net. Anyway, we are going in there to knock out a couple more A's. I think our tall friend (Chris: AKA SoundMan) might be coming to give us support. It should be fun.

Anyway, in other news, did I mention I have a lot of stuff to do. Between homework, a social life, shows, and work, I have been a pretty busy girl. I am sure it will all be worth it when at the end of the semester, I have all those A's to show for it. I speak by faith. :)

My fingers are quite emo right now. Yes, you did just witness an un-announced subject change. I painted them with black fingernail polish, which was very shiny and nice, but unfortunately also very cheap. So they chiped. But they chipped in nice pretty patterns so I let them stay chipped, because I thought they looked kinda cool. My small friend (Sara) tells me this is quite emo. I will paint them again when I get a chance, but for time being I guess I am an emo kid. Oooops I forgot to apply my black eyeliner today.... :)

I am in Humanities class right now, and class is about to start so I guess I will stop this blog.

I will leave my vast and growing reading audience (tongue in cheek---speaking of which, I am have never had full, heck even partial, understanding of this phrase, but anywho I used it, hopefully in a nearly correct way) with this deep thought...

Even if you pretend not to notice an elephant in your room, the stinch of its waste will be a constant reminder to everyone around.

How about that, Jack Handy?

Well, okay, I guess I will try this again. :( Don't you hate it when you start typing a blog and type all this interesting stuff, and then it gets erased. That does not make me happy. Therefore, all I want to write about now is how that makes me angry, and what you are stuck reading is a rant about how hard it is post a simple blog!!!!! All I
did you know that you can ALWAYS see your eyelashes?
Um, I don't know what that has to do with anything.
so?
Well, I mean you can always see everyone's eyelashes right?
no I mean, you can see your own, like IN you eye...ball...right???
OIC :) Well, folks that enlightening bit of information came from my friend Sara, who had a profound part in loosing my first and interesting post. Thank you
you can NOT even pin this on me!
Well, I am just saying you played a part. lol But that is okay, I need to get a mouse. The mouse pad thingy on my computer is the main culprit.

Anyway, earlier I learned something in New Testament Survey. The definition of poking fun.

Poke Fun: To ridicule,
HA Roz can"t remember! lol
Oh that is just wonderful. Thanks again Sara. :)

Surprise :) I am writing on my blog!!!!!

I wrote something, but it got erased. The end. :(

Mmmmm, Good!

The title is a quote from one of my pastor's songs. The lyrics of the lick of the song go something like:

You're Good
So Good
Mmmm, Good
Real Good


lol That is what I was thinking tonight: MY GOD IS GOOD! Although good seems a little less than fitting for the level of His wonderfulness in m life. God totally surprised me, tonight. He is so sweet, I could seriously cry. I won't though, I will just write about what happened tonight.

It has been a long time since, I first heard about this concert (TobyMac, Barlow Girl, Thousand Foot Krutch) I went to Victory Christian Center back in August and saw it in one of their bulletines. I told God that I really wanted to go to that concert. I asked Him if He would make a way that I could go. Later, I even confessed that I am going to get to that concert. This was a few weeks ago.

Then I thought I would not be able to go because of showcase, but it turned out that I was wrong on the dates. This past week, I called my mom and asked her to send me money for the concert. She sent me money, but it went into the wrong account. So I thought that I would not get to go again. But then when she did get the money switched to the right account, I found out that it was too late to get tickets from Victory's book store, where they were 17 without extra fees, and I did not have enough money to get two tickets, plus the extra fees. So then Sara was going to get the tickets. She had the money, and everything, but it was not to happen. The card did not work. So I was like, "Oh well, maybe we don't need to go to this concert." And Sara goes, "Well, I don't understand, but everything happens for a reason." So we decided we would get a blanket and sit outside of Victory and listen to the concert.

When we got there, Sara insisted that we walk around the building first, as to not look suspicious. Then we realized we had to stand in front of the church to hear the band. (Barlow girl was playing. They sing one of Sara's favorite songs) So Sara stood with her foot in the door, and I suggested that we just go on in. So we decided to go the bathroom. We kind of just walked through and out again. Then we sat down in two chairs outside the auditorium. We figured if they asked us to leave we would. Sara wanted to get a better look so she walked up a little bit from me. Then this lady wearing a white shirt came up to me and said, "Do you have a ticket?" I answered, "No ma'am." I was really scared she was going to tell us to go. But instead she said, "I have a ticket if you want it." And I told her, "Well, I am here with my friend." And she spread out two tickets and handed them to me. I was Sooooooo excited. I jumped up and said, "Oh my goodness! Thank you so much," and gave her a hug. Then I was like, "Hey Sara," and she turned around. And I waved the tickets, "We've got tickets!!!" It was amazing!

After Barlow girl, there was an intermission, and we got a chance to talk about it. Sara was saying how she had not understood why we could not get tickets, but now it made sense. She told me how she had been praying, and I told her how I had asked God to get me to that concert a long time ago. It amazes me. The way God does things. It really does. I am so grateful to be His kid. I have the best Father in the world.

Thank You Father
For Your Faithfullness
Thank You for answering prayer.
Thank You for being an awesome provider.
Thank You for being faithful
Even when I am not.
Thank You for wonderful friends,
friends who love and praise You,
For trees to fellowship under
For everything.
Thank you for reminding me tonight,
that You love me, and You care about
my needs and You care about my wants.
There are not words enough to describe
my gratitude, not just for concert tickets,
but for the what they represented. Your love
for me. Thank You for loving me. Thank You for calling
me Your own. Thank You for never ever taking it back.
I trust you Lord. Help me to trust You more.
You alone are my source.
I love you.

That's all I wanted to blog about right now. Peace and love to all my readers. God loves you. He loves us all. And His love is so sweet. Don't believe anyone that tells you any different. God is not an idea, or a nice thought. He is real, and you don't know anything about love, until you meet Him. That's all.

God bless,

Roz

Lastest Stuff

Today I spent my morning with the DTF (Drama/Television/Film Majors). We had a work day. I painted in the morning, and swept in the afternoon. It was fun, but unfortunately I did not get any pics or video. (Please forgive me.) After that, I had a smoothie with a friend, and then came to my room. I got in my bed to read some theater stuff, but then I said hi to a friend online, got sleepy, and took a nap. I woke up with an upset stomach, so I did not want any dinner. So now I am trying to think of something that will help my stomach. It is not happy.

In other news:

I was not sure if I was going to be able to be on the tech, but it turns out I will. I am pretty excited about getting to help with the production. Sarting on next Saturday and until October 7, I think, I will be spending a large portion of time in the Howard Auditorium. I am hoping to capture a few minutes of the fun when possible. :)

Speaking of which:

If you want to catch up on stuff here at ORU, check out my YouTube page. I put a link on this post. Anyway, pretty soon, I am going to do a tour of the campus with some of my friends. There are already some videos on the page that look kind of like I was doing a tour, but that was just me having. The actual tour will be much better. More details coming soon.

Well, that is all for now. I am going to go to store and get something for my stomach, and then I am going to get some work done.

Much Love,

Roz

Long time...Much to say

I honestly say this, I have been blogging in my head for days. But today, I really wanted to write about what has been going on in my life. It's almost like there is so much happening that I don't know exactly where to start. This could be a long one folks. lol I guess I will take it by category.

Update:
I am in school now. As you can tell, I have not done Praises A to Z in a while. My schedule got a little hectic, and I could not go for the second round. However, I still encourage others to try it at least once through. It was truly an exercise that blessed me and enriched my relationship with my Father, Comforter, Savior, and Friend.

School has been awesome! Extremely challenging in several areas, but overall an amazing new adventure. Some of things that have been on my mind to write about have to do with those challenges.

The Health Thing:

Here at ORU we have a required PE course. In the lab of the course, we have done a couple of preliminary test and activities to asscess our current level of fitness. I must admit my results bothered me a little bit. However, I have been bothered about my body before I saw the results. I have been horrified by how much weight I gained over the course of the last 8 months. I went into 2007 wearing a sizes 14 and 16, most of my clothes now are size 18 and 20. I think I have gained around 35 to 40 lbs.

But it's not just the weight that has been bothering me. I have had more trouble breathing since I have been here, than I have had in a long time. There is a lot of walking, a lot of stairs, a lot of steep slopes on this beautiful campus, and they have been hard. I understand that a lot of it has to do with the fact that I am exercising more now, just by all the extra walking, than I have in a really long time, especially with the extra weight.

Anyway, last night I talked to mom on my way back from the Derrek Luke talk, and she commented on my breathing as we walked. I made the comment that I was actually getting used to the whole not being able to breath well thing. I started to tell her what the latest PE test told me, basically my resting heart rate is too high, meaning my heart is have to work extra hard. (I'll come back to this later.)

Anyway, I talked to her all the way back to my room. Then when we finally got off the phone, I started to do my homework. I had a lot of math to do. So around 12:30 or so, I decided to make fresh coffee. I drank like to two cups, really feeling bad about the amount of sugar cubes I needed in the coffee to make it drinkable. Keep in mind, that for the most part coffee does not keep me awake. Sometimes it makes me sleepy, so I was basically drinking it because I love the taste of coffee.

Anyway, the two cups of coffee combined with the fact that I had had a lot of asthsma medicine (which speeds the heart rate) due to my various treks across campus, had my heart racing last night. My heart was beating so hard I could feel it in my chest. So I had finished my homework, and it was around 4:30 in the morning.

Part of me wanted to just stay up and go to class in a few hours, but my heart was beating so fast that I thought it better to lay down and rest, even if it was only for a few hours. So I did my nightly routine, set my alarm clock (cell) for the latest possible time I could and layed down. Let me back up a bit. When I went in to get ready for bed, I started to talk to God. The first thing I did was pray that God would multiply the little bit of sleep that I would get so that I would feel like I had a full nights sleep. I also finally had the sense to humble myself before Him, and ask for help with the whole health thing.

I repented for not being submitted in this area. So then I climbed into bed, but I didn't go to sleep right away. But God was talking to me, telling me that my heart was okay and to just rest. So I fell asleep, and I woke up like three minutes before my alarm was susposed to go off. I got ready for class, make up and all, and got to class early. I did not get sleepy all day! I still have not needed a nap! God is so good! I will go to bed early tonight though. Just because I know I need rest.

Oh, I don't want to forget this part. Today at chapel when Mrs. Luke talked about glorifying God in our bodies, that was for me. It might have been for someone else too, but I know God really ministered to me through it. He reminded me of things that I know to do and have been not been doing.

There are a few other things that I have been wanted to blog about, but alas it is time for supper. I will write more later.

In Christ with Love,

Roz

Close

You are close. My God, you are close. I am so grateful that when I need You I do not have to wonder where You are or whether You have time for me or not. You are always there for me when I need You. Thank you for knocking on the door of my life, and for staying closer to me than anyone else could. I am so grateful that You are close!

Beautiful

You are Beautifu! My God You are beautiful. If beauty is as beauty does, You are the ultimate example of beauty. You have created a beautiful world, from purple mountains to bright yellow tangs, You have filled the Earth and the whole universe with countless beautiful sights. Your word says that the feet of us who preach your gospel are beautiful. The beauty of our feet is only a reflection of the beauty of who You are! Thank You for being beautiful.

Astounding!

You are Astounding! My God you are Astounding! You go out of Your way to do more than I can ask or think, and I thank you for it! I am grateful for every draw dropping surpise you send my way. I am thankful for the way You love me. I am grateful for your mercy that is new every single morning. Praise You for being so astounding!

God is so GOOD!!!!

I am so excited right now. I got a blessing today that I did not expect to get this soon. I say this soon, because I God told me to believe Him for a car for college, and I did. So I expected to get one, I just had no idea that it would be this soon. Right now I have a 2007 Mitshubishi Galant sitting out in the driveway! I am so grateful. I am grateful to God because He provided a way for me to get a car, and once again confirmed that He is with me on this return to school thing. lol I am also grateful to my mother for getting me the car. Praise God for that woman! I promise I have the most wonderful mother in the world! Anyway, I am all excited and praising God and reading about my new vehicle. I want to make sure that I know the maintanence schedule and all of that. :) Anyway, I just wanted to get this moment recorded. :)

In Other News, Praises A to Z will start back on Sunday the first. :) I really enjoyed the challenge. :) I am hoping some more people will try on their blogs too. We shall see.

In other news, my little sister has a B-day Tomorrow. Yay, Tina! We are waiting until Sunday for the party though. I am house sitting this weekend, and I won't be free to leave until tomorrow night. (The only reason why my car is sitting in the driveway! lol)

Anyway, that is all for now folks. I will give an update on my progress on the road to Oklahoma next time.

Much Love,

Roz

Zealous Advocate

You are a Zealous Advocate. My God, You are a Zealous Advocate. From the time Your most prized creation betrayed You, You started Your plan to redeem him. Chapter after chapter, book after book, verse after verse, throughout the old testament and into the new, You recorded Your plan as it unfolded. How great is Your love for me, that You would go through so much heartache, so many instances of waywardness among Your children, to send Your Son to die, so that I can truly live. If You are for me, it doesn't matter who is against me. I praise you for that from A to Z and beyond! You are worthy of all Praise! Thank you for being a Zealous Advocate!