My New Apartment

My life is an infinite state of transition right now. It's interesting. Next Friday AKA April 1 AKA April Fools Day, I am moving into my new apartment. Eight days later is my deadline for passing the swim proficiency. Two two weeks after that my entire Senior Project is due. Then, I guess I will have graduated, well except for the final class that I have to take this summer: Tennis and the enormous bill that I have to pay off by the time the class starts (Which is in July.) If I am successful in all of these transitions, His strength rules, I will be applying to teach English as a second Language in South Korea. Talk about a big transition! lol And if that goes well, and I reach my goal of becoming fluent in Korean, I am going to apply to do my grad school training there, maybe. That last one is a new thought. I may not like it there as much as I think that I will. Who knows. I just pray that the Lord leads me in the direction that He wants me to go and all will be well. Life it keeps on going, until it stops I suppose. Gulp. Yeah, I know.

Happy Thursday (To Me)

I know. It's actually Monday morning. For me, however, it's Thursday, and tomorrow which is actually Tuesday - AKA The IDES OF MARCH, AKA my Birthday, is actually my "Friday". So what will do with post Birthday off days? Well, I am not really sure yet. You would think I would eat left over Birthday cake, but actually I am not getting Birthday cake until the actual Friday, which oddly enough is my Monday. :D) lol If you are completely confused, and I hope you aren't because I do aim to be clear, I work Friday through Tuesday and then I am off on Wednesday and Thursday. :D) Anyway, today has been really interesting as always with this job. It's rarely dull, except when it is... :D) I am already at my first break. It is interesting how fast the time goes by. Before I know it, I will be at lunch again. Then time will go really fast because I left my lunch at home and will have to run home and get it. That will take my whole break. Sigh. I tried to rememebr it, but alas I forgot. I know. Not the first time, probably will not be the last. It will be harder in a few weeks though because I will be living farther away from work. It's not that far away, but there will be a increase in possible traffic. Okay good news. I got two hours of overtime tonight. I am very excited. I will go home at 5:30 or so and come back at seven. This is my first official overtime. I am excited that mean two hours at time and half. Praise the Lord. Need more of that. lol

It's Friday!

Okay so for many people Friday means the weekend, but on my schedule Friday is kind of like my Monday. lol It is the beginning of a five-days in a row stint of working. Today has been a good day so far. I have my first opportunity for overtime tomorrow, but it will only be for about thirty minutes. Still that will be great. Also I graduated from training today. YAY!!!! In other non-work related news. Yesterday was a very good day. I had a nice relaxed morning at home, and then I drove back to Tulsa (without the aide of Five HOUR ENERGY!) and then I called my best friend and had a nice chat, afterwhich I went to a wonderful and impressive new play reading, and then I got some much needed advice, from a good friend. I have to say it was a good day. :D) Today, after work I am going to go home for a little bit and work on my room, before I figure out where to go to get online so I can get some work done. Well, that's all for now. Yeah, I know. More later...

It's Monday...

Top of the Monday to you! I hope everyone out there is having a wonderful, Monday morning. It has been going okay for me so far. I am at work. Working. Waiting to work some more. :D) (<-- I made that one up myself.) Today my roommate gave me chinese food. Which was really nice of her. I love chinese food, so I am looking forward to lunch. In the past, when I got an hour for lunch I would leave, but today, I only get thirty minutes, so I will be staying here for lunch from now on. No venturing off to Nord's for me. My first "off day" during the week is Wednesday, and I am taking a trip home to Texarkana. I am only going for a day so I get a normal driver's license again. Right now, due to an unfortuante melting incident, my driver liscene is round and in two pieces. After next week, it will be nice and new though. Good until I am 38 years old. :D) lol Speaking of getting older, my birthday is in eight days. For the first time in a long time, I am already used to my new age. So interestingly enough, it won't be hard for me to remember that I am 33. Usually it takes a few months for me to ease my way into the next higher number. Don't know what this change signifies, but it is interesting. Anyway, I am going to stop rambling for now. I am hoping that some issue will spark the desire to give my oppinion so I can type a new "What ROZ THINKS ABOUT THAT" blog.

Too Early to be Sleepy...

It's not even nine am yet, and I am already sleepy. Tonight is the opening night for Lucky Stiff. It's a wonderful musical, so everyone in Tulsa, needs to come and see it. Our run is from Thursday through Saturday at 7:30 PM and Sunday at 2:00 PM this week at Howard Auditorium on the Oral Roberts University campus. I am a excited about it. :) That's all for now, but I will probably blog again before the day is over because it keeps my mind engaged so I don't fall asleep at work. :D)

Second Blog this year!

This is my second blog of two thousand 11 :D) YAY for me. I pretty much have nothing to say right now either. So I am just going to type for a bit. Today has been pretty good. I am grateful to God for that. I have taken a lot of calls, and I am pretty sure they have been successful. YAY! Tonight is our final dress rehearsal for Lucky Stiff. The show looks amazing, and I have learned a lot through the process. I look forward to doing more directing. It's fun. In other news: I think I like my senior play. I am waiting to hear back from my teacher about it, but hopefully I can start writing it soon. I am writing this like a journal entry, so if it shows up on my Facebook feed, realize it's just me rambling. In my downtime of the last hour of or so I have taken it upon myself to make another list of plays to purchase and read. Want to know about the 6 plays on my current list. Well, if you are actually still reading this you just might. :D) I found all of these plays at dramatists.com a site that I do indeed frequent.

Back of the Throat by Yussef El Guindi

This one is about a man accused of being a terrorist. Sounds like it would be a good one to direct. Yeah, I actually am thinking like a director when reading plays lately. I like powerful stories. Granted there is always the chance it will be a disappointment, but it certainly sounds promising.

None of the Above by Jenny Lyn Bader
This one is about a girl who was expecting a drug dealer, when a SAT tutor comes to her door. I heard a monologue from this one once, and I am curious about the rest of the story.

The Pain and the Itch by Bruce Norris

This one is about a privilaged yet dysfunctional family. The description made me curious. It could go either way.


The Red Velvet Cake War

by Jessie Jones and two others

The description called it a Southern-Fried comedy. Can't get any better than that. I love plays with food. I love food, oh sorry, I am getting off track. On with the list.

Absalom by Zoe Kazan

I looked into this one hoping that it would have something to do with story of David, but it turns out it's the story of a family reunion. Sounds fun.

Ruined by Lynn Nottage

This is a pulitzer winner, and it's a rough story. I have had it on my list for a while. I was just waiting for dramatist to get it so I would not have to pay $11.00 for it. I am $7.50 girl. :D)

Anyway that is all of my list so far. It will probably be a couple of months before I can actually purchase these, but I will get around to reading them. If my blogging notions continue, I might even write about what I thought of them. Anyway, that's all for now. :D)

Love and Sunshine,

Roz

Has Anyone Seen..."You Don't Know Jack"?

Okay, so it has been years probably since I have written a blog. I was just looking at the SAG Award winners online, and I came across an HBO mini on Jack Kevorkian starring Al Pacino as Jack. I don't get HBO, but it looks like it should be interesting. Anyway, time to go off break. Laters. :D) Yeah, I know.

Hmmm....

Okay, so I am back from Wal-Mart. I wanted to play racquetball today, but I realized that I could not play with the shoes that I have. I needed new tennis. So I went to the store to get a pair. I like them, but I am back in my room now. I am tired, and I don't feel all that great. I don't really want to go over to the gym right now. I guess getting the right shoes was a good step in the right direction. I really like them, they make me want to walk. It has been a long time since I had a good walk. Maybe I will do that later. Not right now though. I got The Brother's Bloom from the Redbox today, so I think I will watch that and relax for a bit. Then, once I feel better (gonna take some Ibuprofen), I am going to work on my play and my game. I am so excited about both projects. I am making the game for my Interactive Media class and I am doing the play for a radio drama. Although I want to use it as a stage play too. Anyway, I am going to stop writing for now. It feels good to write again. I will eventually get around to writing about some real stuff, but I am not rushing anything.

Saturday

Today is Saturday, and I have been up since 9 something. Well, actually awake is more accurate. I am still in bed. I am watching Deliver Us from Eva. It's a good movie. But it is ending now. And Shall We Dance is coming on now. I love that movie. I love most dance movies though. I think Step Up might be my favorite. But this is a close second. Then again, I like Center Stage quite a bit too. And of course Dirty Dancing (RIP Patrick) lol I should just stick with I love most dance movies. I am tentatively excited about the new Fame movie. I say tentatively because I am a huge fan of fame. When I was a little girl, I used to love the TV show. Absolutely loved it! I used to want to be CoCo. I thought she was the greatest. Then in high school, it was a production of Fame, that made me want to be an actress. It was really weird. I just got this almost overwhelming sense of longing to be a part of a performance like that. I just remember knowing with such joy and peace that this is what I want to do. So anyway, Fame has been a pretty significant story in my life. And I really hope the movie rocks. :)

I want to get some breakfast at some point. There is an audition today for a short comedy film, and I thought about going, but I don't think I will. What I would love to do today is go to the gym. I have been seriously thinking about putting an ad in the Oracle for a badminton partner. I really miss it. I want to start by playing on Saturdays and Sundays. Just for a couple of hours each day to start. But I realized the other day, that even if I can't play badminton, I can play racquetball. You can get a good workout with racquetball by yourself. So I think I am going to try to go and play some today. We have another show tonight, but I don't have to be there until 6:00 PM.

Anyway, I think I am wrong about this movie. I don't think it is Shall We Dance. Jennifer Lopez is in that movie. This is the one with Antonio Banderas. I like it too. I like it better than Shall We Dance, although I do like that movie.

Anyway, I want to get dressed so that I can go to Saga and have a waffle. More later.

For the Longest Time...

OKay,it has been forever since I have written a blog. I believe, if I were to look at the date, it has probably been well over a year. It feels like it could have been two years. I don't know. I just know there is so much that I have not said. I am not saying that I am going to say it all right now. I am not exactly sure what I am going to write about; I just decided that I wanted to write. What exactly is on my heart right now? Well, I will just start with what is happening around me. Maybe I will stay there. Maybe my fingers and my keyboard will take me to someplace altogether different.

I am sitting at the light board 35 minutes before the opening night performance of The Oedipus Cycle. There are actors on stage doing doing their mic checks. All of them seem to be in costume. That is good. :) There are also back stage crew members on stage, preparing for the top of the show. Watching the mic checks can be amusing as the actors come up with clever things to say for Owen, our sound guy.

A little girl who plays the child version of Ismene just went across the top of the stage. Now she is running up it. Looks like fun. It is very cool that we have an actual raked stage for this show. So that upstage is literally upstage and downstage is downstage. :) There is a lot of brilliance attached to this show. That is usually the case with our shows. I am not bragging; okay maybe I am, but I think our theatre program is impressive. The set design is cool. The lighting design is wonderful. *Yay Chris Crawford* The sound design is extraordinary. *Yay, Bittner!* The costumes are gorgeous. *Yay, Mrs. Holland and the costume staff. Yay Deanna for the armor*

Okay, now everyone is sitting in a line, and I think they are doing green room. I am not down there. I wonder if I should be. They are clapping now. I think he is telling them to thank the crews. I am betting back stage is fun for this show. There is a lot of noise in the lobby so I can't here what Chris is saying.

Okay, I was gone for a sec. I leaned forward a bit to hear better. It is about time for the show to start. So I guess I will just post this. Baby steps. :)

Extraordinary!

xtraordinary! It is becoming on of my favorite songs. "The Earth will sing Your praise, the glory of Your name, the greatness of Your ways, You are Extraordinary!" Father there is nothing ordinary about you. The way you do things in my life is hardly ever how I thought you would. I love to watch You work in my life and the lives of those around me. Many are the plans in a man's heart, but You direct their steps. Direct me always Lord, even when I don't understand what you are doing. Thank you for being extraordinary. :)

Dedicated

edicated is the word I woke up to last week, after I finally posted Caller. Thank you Father for being so dedicated to loving me. Thank you for taking the trouble, after man fell to prepare the way back to You. Thank You Jesus, for being dedicated to walking around on Earth in human flesh and being a living example of what is like to live a life completely and totally submitted to the will of the Father. Thank You for your sacrafice on the cross. Thank You for saving me, and thank You so much for remaining dedicated and never leaving me. Thank You for being my example of dedicated, and Father please help me to return it. Help me to be more dedicated to You. You are my everything. Thank You! :)

Caller

Thank you Lord for being my caller. I am not just talking about creating me with a purpose, and placing a calling on my life. That is awesome, and I thank you for that too. But You my God call me to You. Whenever I start to drift away, or make anything more prevelant than my relationship with you, You are quick to say, "Yoo hoo! Roz, keep me first!" "Hey, Roz, I come back to me....remember your first love..." You never let me stray, Lord. Thank you so much for being so faithful to remind me that You are the one thing that is needful, that more than anything if I want to survive this life You have ordained for me, I have to continue to look to You as my source of everything. I love you for it. I am so grateful that you are a faithful caller. Thank you for calling me, and being patient with me. Thank you with all my heart!

Beloved

eloved, Father, is the word that was on my heart for you when I woke up (the third time) this morning. I looked for another word because while I know you call your children, your beloved, I was not quite so sure I could honestly call you my beloved. Not because I don't love you. Well, at least I try to love you. You say over and over in Your word that if we Love you, we keep your commandments. It is my hearts desire to keep them all the time, but You know I don't. You know better than anybody how much I screw up. WOW, I just got it. It is okay that I call You my beloved without getting it all right. Because in my heart I am working toward that end. To love you with my whole life. To obey You the instant I hear You. And even though I don't have it all together, you still love me. You still call me daughter. I love You for that, Father. I love you for sending Jesus to shed His blood that covers me and offers me the chance to come to You. Thank You, even for this lesson that I have learned today. I am glad I did not change the word. My God, My King, My Beloved.

Amazing!

Okay, so I am doing another round of Praises A to Z. This time the rules are different, as long as we use a word for each letter of the alphabet, the structure of the "praise" can be anything we want it to be. :)

mazing Lord,

Just want to take a little time to talk to You about how amazing You are in my life. When I got out of my car the other day it struck me that there are so many things in my life, that are there because You made them happen. When I deserve nothing but to be ignored or shunned, you bless me. You bless me with health when I eat crazily and sleep way to little. You bless me with good grades, even when I don't do as well as I want to on some test. You amaze me with the way You continue to be a kind, generous, loving, savior, no matter how I behave. You make me want to do better. You make me want to draw closer to You, to learn how to be more like You. You make my jaw drop when I think about the amazing effects of You being the Lord over my life. Thank you, Father, for being so incredibly amazing. I love you!

Hello World

Hi Everyone,

Ever had one of those moments, after a long period of being too busy and too tired to care, when you absolutely must doll up. Tonight, I came to that place. Did not matter that I had no where to go or nothing to do, or that no one would see me. I had to be cute, tonight. I had to do my hair, and put on some makeup. (I am not sure when I got so comfortable not wearing any.) I even put on eye liner. The good thing about doing this is it is fun. The bad thing is that it can snowball really quickly. WHen you do this, you want something cute to wear to match your dolled up face. Then you do that, and you do want to go somewhere. lol Anyway, I am not going that far. I am just going to throw on a top, and go. And soon too. Time to meet up with Chris. Well, in a few minutes. So this will be a short blog. You see I knew, I could not let this moment pass without sharing with you how I just randomly, after over a month of bumming it, decided to fix up a little bit. :) Anyway, more later.

Yeah, I know.

Love ya all. :)
Roz

Time to blog again

Well since we are well into the year of 2008, and I myself have recently started a new "year" of my life, I think it is about time that I blogged. Today I am going into the studio to record a 60 second analog commercial. Fun stuff, I hope. I am hoping everything goes well. We allowed ourselves four hours to get it done, so hopefully we can get it done in that time. :) I am going in with my side kick, Sara the
SARA: I am laughing internally becuase you see, it is not I who is the sidekick...
No, it is not I. I am the leader. I am a mountian. I am the rain that falls on a ...(roz is laughing at my words...my statments. I am writing a thing of beauty here and Roz is having a freaking feild day, what the crap? I am almost never open and poetic and artsy and dramatic and amazing and wait a second. I am always amazing, even when I don't think i'm amazing, I'm amazing, because I'm amazing in the sense of not realizing how amazing I truly am. Wow...I am wonderful. I am God's gift to earth...wait a second. Who am I kidding? ok...that was a sad reality check. Moving on.) soft spring evening.
Roz: as I was saying...my sidekick, Sara "I am more amazing than the world" H. Sara does not like her last name mentioned over the net. Anyway, we are going in there to knock out a couple more A's. I think our tall friend (Chris: AKA SoundMan) might be coming to give us support. It should be fun.

Anyway, in other news, did I mention I have a lot of stuff to do. Between homework, a social life, shows, and work, I have been a pretty busy girl. I am sure it will all be worth it when at the end of the semester, I have all those A's to show for it. I speak by faith. :)

My fingers are quite emo right now. Yes, you did just witness an un-announced subject change. I painted them with black fingernail polish, which was very shiny and nice, but unfortunately also very cheap. So they chiped. But they chipped in nice pretty patterns so I let them stay chipped, because I thought they looked kinda cool. My small friend (Sara) tells me this is quite emo. I will paint them again when I get a chance, but for time being I guess I am an emo kid. Oooops I forgot to apply my black eyeliner today.... :)

I am in Humanities class right now, and class is about to start so I guess I will stop this blog.

I will leave my vast and growing reading audience (tongue in cheek---speaking of which, I am have never had full, heck even partial, understanding of this phrase, but anywho I used it, hopefully in a nearly correct way) with this deep thought...

Even if you pretend not to notice an elephant in your room, the stinch of its waste will be a constant reminder to everyone around.

How about that, Jack Handy?

Well, okay, I guess I will try this again. :( Don't you hate it when you start typing a blog and type all this interesting stuff, and then it gets erased. That does not make me happy. Therefore, all I want to write about now is how that makes me angry, and what you are stuck reading is a rant about how hard it is post a simple blog!!!!! All I
did you know that you can ALWAYS see your eyelashes?
Um, I don't know what that has to do with anything.
so?
Well, I mean you can always see everyone's eyelashes right?
no I mean, you can see your own, like IN you eye...ball...right???
OIC :) Well, folks that enlightening bit of information came from my friend Sara, who had a profound part in loosing my first and interesting post. Thank you
you can NOT even pin this on me!
Well, I am just saying you played a part. lol But that is okay, I need to get a mouse. The mouse pad thingy on my computer is the main culprit.

Anyway, earlier I learned something in New Testament Survey. The definition of poking fun.

Poke Fun: To ridicule,
HA Roz can"t remember! lol
Oh that is just wonderful. Thanks again Sara. :)

Surprise :) I am writing on my blog!!!!!

I wrote something, but it got erased. The end. :(

Mmmmm, Good!

The title is a quote from one of my pastor's songs. The lyrics of the lick of the song go something like:

You're Good
So Good
Mmmm, Good
Real Good


lol That is what I was thinking tonight: MY GOD IS GOOD! Although good seems a little less than fitting for the level of His wonderfulness in m life. God totally surprised me, tonight. He is so sweet, I could seriously cry. I won't though, I will just write about what happened tonight.

It has been a long time since, I first heard about this concert (TobyMac, Barlow Girl, Thousand Foot Krutch) I went to Victory Christian Center back in August and saw it in one of their bulletines. I told God that I really wanted to go to that concert. I asked Him if He would make a way that I could go. Later, I even confessed that I am going to get to that concert. This was a few weeks ago.

Then I thought I would not be able to go because of showcase, but it turned out that I was wrong on the dates. This past week, I called my mom and asked her to send me money for the concert. She sent me money, but it went into the wrong account. So I thought that I would not get to go again. But then when she did get the money switched to the right account, I found out that it was too late to get tickets from Victory's book store, where they were 17 without extra fees, and I did not have enough money to get two tickets, plus the extra fees. So then Sara was going to get the tickets. She had the money, and everything, but it was not to happen. The card did not work. So I was like, "Oh well, maybe we don't need to go to this concert." And Sara goes, "Well, I don't understand, but everything happens for a reason." So we decided we would get a blanket and sit outside of Victory and listen to the concert.

When we got there, Sara insisted that we walk around the building first, as to not look suspicious. Then we realized we had to stand in front of the church to hear the band. (Barlow girl was playing. They sing one of Sara's favorite songs) So Sara stood with her foot in the door, and I suggested that we just go on in. So we decided to go the bathroom. We kind of just walked through and out again. Then we sat down in two chairs outside the auditorium. We figured if they asked us to leave we would. Sara wanted to get a better look so she walked up a little bit from me. Then this lady wearing a white shirt came up to me and said, "Do you have a ticket?" I answered, "No ma'am." I was really scared she was going to tell us to go. But instead she said, "I have a ticket if you want it." And I told her, "Well, I am here with my friend." And she spread out two tickets and handed them to me. I was Sooooooo excited. I jumped up and said, "Oh my goodness! Thank you so much," and gave her a hug. Then I was like, "Hey Sara," and she turned around. And I waved the tickets, "We've got tickets!!!" It was amazing!

After Barlow girl, there was an intermission, and we got a chance to talk about it. Sara was saying how she had not understood why we could not get tickets, but now it made sense. She told me how she had been praying, and I told her how I had asked God to get me to that concert a long time ago. It amazes me. The way God does things. It really does. I am so grateful to be His kid. I have the best Father in the world.

Thank You Father
For Your Faithfullness
Thank You for answering prayer.
Thank You for being an awesome provider.
Thank You for being faithful
Even when I am not.
Thank You for wonderful friends,
friends who love and praise You,
For trees to fellowship under
For everything.
Thank you for reminding me tonight,
that You love me, and You care about
my needs and You care about my wants.
There are not words enough to describe
my gratitude, not just for concert tickets,
but for the what they represented. Your love
for me. Thank You for loving me. Thank You for calling
me Your own. Thank You for never ever taking it back.
I trust you Lord. Help me to trust You more.
You alone are my source.
I love you.

That's all I wanted to blog about right now. Peace and love to all my readers. God loves you. He loves us all. And His love is so sweet. Don't believe anyone that tells you any different. God is not an idea, or a nice thought. He is real, and you don't know anything about love, until you meet Him. That's all.

God bless,

Roz